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The Most Interesting Man In The World

The Man I Want To Be

The song in my head last night was playing loudly.....

God, I'm down here on my knees
'Cause it's the last place left to fall
Beggin' for another chance
If there's any chance at all
That You might still be listenin'
Lovin' and forgivin' guys like me

I've spent my whole life
Gettin' it all wrong
And I sure could use Your help
'Cause from now on

I want to be a good man
A do like I should man
I want to be the kind of man
The mirror likes to see

I want to be a strong man
And admit that I was wrong man
God, I'm asking You to come change me
Into the man I want to be

If there's anyway for her and me
To make another start
Could You see what You could do
To put some love back in her heart?
'Cause it goin' to take a miracle
After all I've done to really make her see

That I want to be a stay man
I want to be a brave man
I want to be the kind of man
She sees in her dreams

God, I want to be Your man
And I want to be her man
God, I only hope she still believes
In the man I want to be

Well, I know this late at night the talk is cheap
But Lord, don't give up on me

I want to be a givin' man
I want to really start livin', man
God, I'm asking You to come change me
Into the man I want to be

Congrats to Crystal!

Our awesome praise and worship leader Crystal Yates just won the NATIONAL final for the Texaco Country Showdown in Nashville last night! Congrats to her and Will and may God continue to bless them and their music and family!

Looking forward to a weekend with my church family as tomorrow is our Volunteer Appreciation Banquet/ dinner in Flower Mound and then looking forward to dinner and a movie with some awesome friends I volunteer with!! I cannot wait until I hear God's voice calling me to go ahead and take the next step. I feel I have been in a holding pattern for a while now. I know the flood gates can open at anytime. Ready to be a blessing and be blessed. Looking forward to a greater involvement with more of the youth especially the older ones.

...but I can't

If there was ONE thing I would love to able to do right now it would be to talk to this special person.....just talk. Lay aside the past and move on from that and see what the present might hold. Its been several years since I have spoken to you but I still hear your voice daily. If I think of you, i imagine what you might say, how you might react, its almost like a prison but I know only i hold the key yet I still keep myself locked inside....longing for you more than ever at times. I do see now how "it is the little things" that make life have meaning. Everytime I hear or see that quote I think of your bathroom wall. Everytime I think of the hill country, its you and the kids that come to mind. I know God has a plan for me. I have prayed about whether you mihgt be in it and for Him to bless it or block it. I have no idea how I will know its blocked. I know He has done a great work in me and taught me so much of His agape love. Selfless love not the selfish love i have known my whole life. He has prepared me and continues to prepare me for His plan. I am able to see how my "things" have at times controlled my life and I am in the process of simplifying it. Getting rid of what is not really needed. I know that you may never have any desire to ever talk to me again. I know that it feels like at times I should move on. I know how that would be so hard to do while serving God where I do . I know I should....

Bless it or block it

As I lay here awakened from my restful slumber I was led to my knees and to James 1:5-6. Praying over a situation and asking God to bless it and bring it back to light or block it with a definite sign.